It is never easy to let go of someone we love so dearly, especially our parents or siblings. It’s been three years, since my mother went on to the other side. She was not just my mother, but my best friend, my pal, my running partner, and more. She was my world!! One day she was healthy for her age and still working, remodeling her home, and enjoying life to becoming ill. It happened so fast! And what transpired while in the hospital to a rehab facility leading to her death, is what I struggled with over the following two to three years.
I won’t go into details of what transpired, but it left me with nightmares nearly every night, and sometimes two to three times a night. I was not only trying to cope with the loss, but the added issues of how she died. My heart was broken!
After months of going through the nightmares, the tears, my mind clouded, and no interest in the things I enjoyed doing; my son got a book for my birthday. It was a book on how to prepare and recover from a loss. Reading it helped me to better understand the grieving process and the time needed to go through it. It was a huge help!
Then, early this year, I had a dream… A beautiful dream! My mother and I was together again, and she was laughing and carrying on. As with my brother that passed a few years ago, she smiled at me and said, “Everything is okay!” After that night of having this dream, gradually everything that I felt and carried on my shoulders was lifted with a sweet peace. Since then, things have been getting better through the year, and I have started to pick back up my hobbies and work again. Oh, I still have moments where I shed some tears and I tell my mother that I miss her always, but I am able to go on with life as she would have wanted me to do. Today, I am able to visit her grave along with my brother and step-father, and sit with them for a spell, and enjoy the time.

Daily writing prompt

What positive events have taken place in your life over the past year?

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