Too often when we are stationary in one spot for any length of time, the mind begins to work in over-drive, which I am at fault in this as well. And this is something I need to do less of.
Too much thinking on any given subject can bring anxiety and stress over situations that we have no control over. I spend four hours on the road driving to and from my job. It is dark going and coming from work on top of it. So, that leaves plenty of time to over-think a situation that I can’t do nothing with, and frankly none of my business. So, I spend time singing songs and talking with the Lord. I’ve talked about getting CD’s with books on them and listen to stories and educational CD’s. Looking for ways to be more productive mentally, while on the road.
dailyprompt
Overcoming A Painful Loss
It is never easy to let go of someone we love so dearly, especially our parents or siblings. It’s been three years, since my mother went on to the other side. She was not just my mother, but my best friend, my pal, my running partner, and more. She was my world!! One day she was healthy for her age and still working, remodeling her home, and enjoying life to becoming ill. It happened so fast! And what transpired while in the hospital to a rehab facility leading to her death, is what I struggled with over the following two to three years.
I won’t go into details of what transpired, but it left me with nightmares nearly every night, and sometimes two to three times a night. I was not only trying to cope with the loss, but the added issues of how she died. My heart was broken!
After months of going through the nightmares, the tears, my mind clouded, and no interest in the things I enjoyed doing; my son got a book for my birthday. It was a book on how to prepare and recover from a loss. Reading it helped me to better understand the grieving process and the time needed to go through it. It was a huge help!
Then, early this year, I had a dream… A beautiful dream! My mother and I was together again, and she was laughing and carrying on. As with my brother that passed a few years ago, she smiled at me and said, “Everything is okay!” After that night of having this dream, gradually everything that I felt and carried on my shoulders was lifted with a sweet peace. Since then, things have been getting better through the year, and I have started to pick back up my hobbies and work again. Oh, I still have moments where I shed some tears and I tell my mother that I miss her always, but I am able to go on with life as she would have wanted me to do. Today, I am able to visit her grave along with my brother and step-father, and sit with them for a spell, and enjoy the time.
Daily writing prompt
What positive events have taken place in your life over the past year?
Nourishing the Body
Meat… Each individual has their own opinion, and I too have my own. It serves it’s purpose through the protein and fats that the body needs. And… It doesn’t take much meat to meet the daily needs required. I use to be a vegan and vegetarian, and still today I may have a meatless day here and there. But for the most part, I do eat meat to feed the body. I have noticed a difference from no meat in the diet to having meat in the diet. For me, my skin is healthier with fats from meat in the diet. My body feels healthier
Shake It Out:
After a long week of work and driving three to four hours a day to get to work and back home, I look forward to the weekend. I look forward to spending my free three days off shaking out the stiffness from sitting and standing for long periods of time. In doing so, I love wearing the most comfortable clothing such as warm pj’s or sweats with a lose fitting button shirt. Pin my hair up enough to look and feel put together, and get on the treadmill, make a cozy meal, and enjoy my coffee outside while watching the sun come up.
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